Here begins the record of my journey of transition from being female bodied to being male bodied. I don’t really consider this transition to be a change from being female to being male since I have always considered myself as both. I’ve always viewed myself internally as having a masculine body and it has only been recently that I’ve found the courage to finally make the outside match the inside.
The first consideration of accepting myself as trans came back in March of this year. Although I’ve had the desire to be male for as long as I can remember, I never allowed myself to consider the possibility of being trans due to the implications that would have for myself and those around me. I was born the second of two children and the only daughter of my parents. I grew up in a conservative Midwest town in a conservative Christian family. I knew as a preteen that I wanted to be a boy and that I was attracted to girls. I came out as gay when I was 28. It took another 10 years for me to accept that I’m trans. So here I am at 38 and I finally feel like I get to be the man I’ve always wanted to be.